Post Graduation Thoughts

I received my diploma in the mail about a month ago, and I'm not going to lie; I was kind of underwhelmed with the paper's print and quality. I don't know; I guess for all that time and work, I was expecting a little more Victorian-style razzle-dazzle, haha.

Anyway lol, I am beyond grateful that I was able to graduate. I learned a lot, especially as a first-generation college student. Now, I kinda feel like I don't know what I want to do, but in the uncertainty, I am trusting the Lord, leaving room for the excitement of "anything is possible." Graduating is fun, especially when it feels like a huge anxious weight was lifted off my shoulders (deep sigh, haha), but the job hunt hasn't been easy. I did all of that work, but now I'm just kind of at a standstill, metaphorically looking around. Some jobs have rejected me, and some haven't responded (shrugs shoulders). The search continues, haha.

See, leading up to college, I always knew what I was going to do next, but while in college, many, many times I thought to myself, "Ok, well, what am I going to do after college?" and all I could come up with was a blank page. But I thought about it (more than you know): I can either be a glass-half-empty person or a glass-half-full person. Exactly, glass-half-full all the way. Choosing to see the good in all and being grateful for the here and the now, despite the present uncertainty and standstills.

After four years of being anxious and always having something on my mind or having a project or an assignment to worry about, I got used to dealing with the stress of it all. And then, from one day to the next, it was suddenly gone; I didn't have that stress anymore, so my mind was left with empty hands looking for anything to worry or stress about. I felt like this thing I've been holding for so long just disappeared, and now I'm just here, standing still. But God taught me to take this moment in time as an opportunity to stand still and breathe, to stay present without having to feel like I need to worry about something. I constantly remind myself that He did not give us a spirit of fear and worry but a spirit of love and a sound mind.